Starting on Monday, September 6, 2010 (at 4:00 in the morning, so technically Sunday, September 5), I started taking a picture of something that made me happy every day. My Project Happiness 365 started as a proactive act on my part to ward off deep depression. It was spurred by heartbreak as an effort to pull myself out of the wreckage, but now it's fueled by gratitude and a desire to find the beauty in everyday, "mundane" life. This is my honest, vulnerable journey from Hot Mess to Winning. I hope this helps. Oh, and if you're in pain, good; that means you put your whole heart into something. And if you think it won't ever get better, I promise it will. Here's my proof.


Day 3. And Kaitlin is the winner winner chicken dinner. I took like 5 beautiful pictures of the sky and a two pictures of Kristi Yamagutchi with a mustache drawn on her. But Kaitlin is by far the winner.

Wowie Kazowie. I don’t know what was happening but let’s say it made Kaitlin… excited. I think she might’ve been stuck this way after the picture because I asked her to please do it again. No worries. She’ll surely recover soon.

Today was a better day! This picture made me happy, but we had an assignment for Lab where we had to bring in two songs: one that made us wanna dance and one that we connected to emotionally. Meagan brought in “Fix You” by Coldplay. It hit me like a brick wall, and I spent a while after that trying to shake it off. Here are some of the lyrics:

“When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone and it goes to waste
Could it be worse?”

That’s just a bit of it, but I couldn’t really handle it. Not a song I plan on listening to in the near future. But happiness is a journey, as is life. No I’m not perfect today but I’m enjoying my journey. My occasionally torturous journey. My often awe-inspiring, beautiful beautiful journey.

Oh and some old man rode up behind me on his bike today and honked his Bozo horn at me about 8 TIMES. I think I got it, dude. I couldn’t whip out my phone fast enough but I have a feeling he’ll be back. Oh, he’ll be back.

“Even the stars sometimes fade to gray. Even the stars hide away.”
~”Hideaway” by The Weepies



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