Starting on Monday, September 6, 2010 (at 4:00 in the morning, so technically Sunday, September 5), I started taking a picture of something that made me happy every day. My Project Happiness 365 started as a proactive act on my part to ward off deep depression. It was spurred by heartbreak as an effort to pull myself out of the wreckage, but now it's fueled by gratitude and a desire to find the beauty in everyday, "mundane" life. This is my honest, vulnerable journey from Hot Mess to Winning. I hope this helps. Oh, and if you're in pain, good; that means you put your whole heart into something. And if you think it won't ever get better, I promise it will. Here's my proof.

5. Sroommates

This is a really good end to a pretty decent day. I know it’s 2 AM so it’s techinically not “today” anymore but I DID take the picture BEFORE midnight. SO HUZZAH, HATERS! … Actually I’m not sure if there are haters of the blog. I mean, I’m sure they are. If Miranda has haters, surely I do,too. But honestly, I am so shocked every day when I hear people say they read my blog. I mean, I think what I have to say is worth reading. That’s why I write it. Even if it’s just for my own sake. But just know that I am so so so grateful for anyone who reads this. I’m simply trying to document my happiness for myself and possibly in a way that could help others reexamine their own lives. If this helps you at all, that makes my day. I love you all.

Anyway. Past the mushy. On to the funny shite that happened today.

I was walking.. STRUTTING with Katie on our way home and I pointed to this sweater that someone had dropped on the ground, and as I turned around I was ATTACKED by a tree branch. That happens when you’re 6’3″. Blinded by fashion.

My day ended with sitting in my room and chatting for HOURS with my some of my roommates. And I love love love them so much. I would tell you what we talked about but it is far too inappropriate for the world wide web. It may have involved sexts and other inappropriate things. I may have gushed over other people’s love lives. I may have encouraged Scott to do a wildy NOT-OK experiment. But I know I DEFINITELY laughed my ass off. Til now. 2 in the morning. I had amazing conversation with my roomies and … it was amazing. I was in the moment the whole time, thinking about nothing else but what was going on right in front of me. And I was.. AM truly happy. I had a great conversation with Ben that lasted for… HOURS. But we talked about some really good shit. I’m babbling. I had a great day and it was all about loving exactly where I was and loving the people I was spending my time with. And I’m hanging out with my twussy tomorrow! Something to look forward to! And you KNOW how much I love that. AAAAND a Mad Men party on Saturday. Life is looking pretty beautiful, eh?

Here’s a picture of us chilling. (It’s before Kaitlin arrived. I’m sorry, Kaitlin!! But you already had your BEAUTIFUL moment in the spotlight.)

Oh and sroommates=sexy roommates. DOY!!

Kelley reminded me today, “You dont’ have to be happy all the time.” Agreed. So here’s my lyric:

“Don’t ask me what I need. I’m just fine here finding me.”
~”Finding Me” by Vertical Horizon

I am so in love with my life. So so in love. Because I know this for certain: my life is going to be exactly what it is. I auditioned for the Midwest Theatre Auditions and I got 5 callbacks but ONE job. I only got ONE job offer the previous summer. I auditioned for 5 schools and I made it into ONE. My life has a funny way of showing me the right option. 🙂 I have so much faith for what my future holds. And I cannot f*cking wait.

I still love you. Still. Even if you’re not here. And if you think this is for you, it is.

JAMES

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Comments on: "5. Sroommates" (1)

  1. It really does help me and make me think a lot about whether or not I’m finding hapiness each day! Yesterday I was walking a friend’s dog, and I walked passed some kids chalk drawings on their driveway. There were about ten batman drawings and they were SO cute! I thought to myself ‘that would be my project happiness picture for today’ 🙂
    You write well and you have great things to say! That’s why I love reading!

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