Starting on Monday, September 6, 2010 (at 4:00 in the morning, so technically Sunday, September 5), I started taking a picture of something that made me happy every day. My Project Happiness 365 started as a proactive act on my part to ward off deep depression. It was spurred by heartbreak as an effort to pull myself out of the wreckage, but now it's fueled by gratitude and a desire to find the beauty in everyday, "mundane" life. This is my honest, vulnerable journey from Hot Mess to Winning. I hope this helps. Oh, and if you're in pain, good; that means you put your whole heart into something. And if you think it won't ever get better, I promise it will. Here's my proof.

6. Sexy Meets Youchy

Another amazing night in my life. GOD I LOVE MY LIFE. Haaaaaaaaaaaa. This is sober. I’m just happy. I was invited to a dancer party and dubbed “a dancer”. That really touches me. It may seem stupid, but it really, really touched me. Because it’s super intimidating being a class full of dance majors and not having the title of “Dance Major” or “Dance Minor”. So. It really made me happy. I went to a Jump Rhythm Jazz master class and was reminded of why and how much I love Jeannie. I want to BE her. Katie told me I’m well on my way. ALMOST MADE MY DAY! Any comparison to Jeannie = WIN! Hung out with Olivia. NEW FRIENDS! Got a new album. Seems like a daily thing for me: Sufjan Stevens’ “Illinois”. Love it. I know it’s old school, but I totally love it. And I teased my hair tonight which I’m obsessies with. And I wore a super deep cut Vneck. Courtney called me “European”… I just thought I was being slutty. But yes, European. I’m European. A EUROPEAN SLUT! I couldn’t resist.

And tomorrow is a Mad Men party. Tonight I was reminded of how many people love me.  And I love you guys, too. I really do. And I have plenty of love to go around. Like a f*cking Giving Tree. A Big Gay Giving Tree. Halloween costume? YES PLEASE.

Teague, THIS is what I want. A life full of laughter and love. And I DO have something to come home to. I get to blog about how amazing my life is. This is my thing to come home to. This. And you guys. This is exactly what I want. Loving today and KNOWING tomorrow will be just as amazing or better.

With no further ado…. DAY 6. The title is pretty self-explanatory. My new twussy friend (I LOVE YOU) and I: posing as um.. “sexy”.

And no, I won’t edit my eyes cuz I looked insane. And I have pride in that fugly face I made. Cuz… can you do that? And are you brave enough to post it on the interweb. Um, YES AND YES B.

“I hate to break it to you, babe, but I’m not drowning. There’s no one here to save.”
~”King of Anything” by Sara Bareilles

One last thing. I realized today no one can make you feel any way. Unless you let them. You’re in control. In a way. Ha. Remember that. Enough. One word. Sentences.



Comments on: "6. Sexy Meets Youchy" (2)

  1. James! I am so happy for you….I look forward to hearing how everything turns out!

  2. I’d say that’s a pretty good goal, and you’re well on your way. Love you so much. ❤

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