Starting on Monday, September 6, 2010 (at 4:00 in the morning, so technically Sunday, September 5), I started taking a picture of something that made me happy every day. My Project Happiness 365 started as a proactive act on my part to ward off deep depression. It was spurred by heartbreak as an effort to pull myself out of the wreckage, but now it's fueled by gratitude and a desire to find the beauty in everyday, "mundane" life. This is my honest, vulnerable journey from Hot Mess to Winning. I hope this helps. Oh, and if you're in pain, good; that means you put your whole heart into something. And if you think it won't ever get better, I promise it will. Here's my proof.

13. Open Wide

Day #13 was NOT unlucky! Not at all! It was a really good day. I’ve realized lately that sometimes I am not completely honest with myself about how I’m feeling. I put a lot of pressure on myself to be happy all the time because of this blog. But the last couple days I was feeling plain ol’ sad and I was honest with myself about it. And it worked in my favor. It feels good being honest with myself. And Olivia/Twussy thanked me for that honesty in my blog. Because there’s too much pressure to be happy all the time. And it’s not possible. So I won’t set that standard so no one should meet that. And being honest with other people is also important but I think honesty should start with yourself. Because if anyone needs to hear your honesty, it’s you.

Here’s what I did today. I tutored someone. We talked about musicals. WEE. I ran my song with Tim. WEE. I went to Modern Dance Improv Club. SO WEE! I shared some beautiful moments with Val. (Thanks, Val!). It was a nice journey for me. I worked out. Ouchie, as alls. BUT THEN. I spent the night with some of my roommates and it was SO FUN. God. I know I say this all the time but I love love love love my roommates. And I know this is exactly where I’m supposed to be. I’m supposed to be with these people who totally get me and people who I totally get. It’s supposed to be like this. Exactly like this. Ugh. So perf.

So here’s what lost to the picture of the day. Some SEXY pictures of Kaitlin making the most orgasmic faces I have ever seen in my life. I saw that man on the mini trampoline again today and Iwanted to take a picture of him. Not so much because I think he’s funny but he is SO fearless. OH and the other day as Katie and I walked past the daycare at the YMCA all the little kids were playing outside and Katie said, “Hi,” to this little boy. He turned and looked at us, cross-eyed, and said, “….Hiii.” God shite. I thought I was gonna melt into a little puddle right there on the ground.

Anyway here’s the picture. It don’t get any better than this.

My roommates and their intimate relationship with a blow-up whale. Do I need to say anything more.

I’m a thinker. And if you’re reading this I bet you are as well. But just stop. Stop thinking. I know I know, easier said than done. But really. Can you honestly change a situation by thinking about it? Nopesies Popesies. So stop. Don’t think too much. Go hang out with your friends. You don’t have to be alone. You could be alone if you wanted to be. But why? You have people who love you. So go love them back!

“Hey, baby, I’m a rockstar.”
~”Rockstar 101″ by Rihanna



Comments on: "13. Open Wide" (1)

  1. OMG I want to hang out with all of you….. I MISS MY ROOMIES!!!!!!!

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