Starting on Monday, September 6, 2010 (at 4:00 in the morning, so technically Sunday, September 5), I started taking a picture of something that made me happy every day. My Project Happiness 365 started as a proactive act on my part to ward off deep depression. It was spurred by heartbreak as an effort to pull myself out of the wreckage, but now it's fueled by gratitude and a desire to find the beauty in everyday, "mundane" life. This is my honest, vulnerable journey from Hot Mess to Winning. I hope this helps. Oh, and if you're in pain, good; that means you put your whole heart into something. And if you think it won't ever get better, I promise it will. Here's my proof.

Leah had a party. It was like a masquerade winning birthday party. My mom tried on the mask. Despite it being a pink, glittery butterfly, the mask was still terrifying:

My mom isn’t scary; the mask is scary. My mommy is the most beautiful mommy. But the mask is scary. Cuz you can’t see how pretty she is.

People say I look like my mom. And I am so grateful.

(When I do drag, we could be sisters. Oooh maybe we should do that!)

“Let’s go to sleep with clearer heads and hearts too big to fit our beds. And maybe we won’t feel so alone. Before we turn to stone. And if you wait for someone else’s hand, you will surely fall down. If you wait for someone else’s hand, you’ll fall. You’ll fall. I know that I am nothing new, and my words might not seem much to you. But, brother, how we must atone before we turn to stone.”
~”Turn to Stone” by Ingrid Michaelson

44 days til another day.

LOVE

JAMES.

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