Starting on Monday, September 6, 2010 (at 4:00 in the morning, so technically Sunday, September 5), I started taking a picture of something that made me happy every day. My Project Happiness 365 started as a proactive act on my part to ward off deep depression. It was spurred by heartbreak as an effort to pull myself out of the wreckage, but now it's fueled by gratitude and a desire to find the beauty in everyday, "mundane" life. This is my honest, vulnerable journey from Hot Mess to Winning. I hope this helps. Oh, and if you're in pain, good; that means you put your whole heart into something. And if you think it won't ever get better, I promise it will. Here's my proof.

Success:

I raised $1600 to help me move to New York. Everyone was extremely supportive.

Here’s what I didn’t anticipate:

So in between each of my numbers for my benefit, I asked some of my friends to get up and share a little memory with me. And I didn’t really realize how much my friends loved me until then. Listening to our stories told through their perspective really made a difference to me. Ya know, you think, ‘Bah, I’m just a person who breathes and eats and poops.’ But your friends think so much more. So. It meant a lot to me. And moving will be extremely bittersweet. Perfect word to describe it.

I said to the world, “I would like to follow my dreams,” and then I worked my ass off. And now the world is conspiring to assist me. And for that I am grateful.

I’ve started praying again. Not for me though.

“So when I panic and feel each day I’ve come to the end of the line, I just say that fear hasn’t lick me yet. I keep telling myself, ‘I’m the bravest individual I have ever met.'”
~”I’m The Bravest Individual” from Sweet Charity (Cy Coleman, Dorothy Fields, Neil Simon)

“Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, ‘I just don’t care’?”
~”Glitter In The Air” by Pink

JAMES.

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